I had finally admitted the truth to myself: I didn't want to be a chemical engineer anymore.
I didn't want to work for a chemical company anymore.
I had kind of admitted it to my husband, but he was not on board – at all.
I had spent the last 3 years trying to bring my passion for personal coaching to the company I worked for, with more success than I had expected.
Still, it wasn't enough.
I still felt something was missing, that I was meant to be doing something else.
That I had more to offer.
Then, I went in for a routine checkup with my doctor. As she did my breast exam, her brow furrowed. “Hmmm….” She said. “I feel a little lump.”
My breathing ceased.
“I’m sure it’s nothing, but let’s get a mammogram just to make sure,” she said.
Fear grabbed me, and held on.
I’m not sure I breathed that day, as I returned to work after scheduling my mammogram.
What if I have breast cancer?
Fortunately, I had a session scheduled with my coach that day. When I told her what had happened, she asked me, “What was the first thing you thought when she found the lump?”
“That I might have breast cancer,” I answered.
“What did you think next?”
“That if I did, I could finally quit my job.”
“You do know, don't you, that your body is capable of creating illness to serve your larger purpose,” she shared.
“What do you mean?” I asked.
“That if you believe your only way to quit your job is through something catastrophic happening, you will create that for yourself.”
“It’s a very dangerous mindset at work. Especially if you don’t realize it,” she offered.
In that moment, I realized that she was right. Over the past 3 years I had been doing my best to gently live my truth and bring everyone with me.
But sometimes life gives you a wake-up call, and you can either hit the snooze button or wake up.
I chose to wake up.
Two weeks later, after a mammogram and an ultrasound confirmed that I did NOT have breast cancer, I had already shifted.
Strangely enough, as soon as I shifted, the Universe did too.
The company my coach worked for decided that they wanted me to come and work with them and offered me a job as an executive coach, something I had been dreaming of for years.
So I accepted, and thus began a new phase of my life where I began to live my truth, in my work and then in my relationships. It wasn't always pretty, for sure, or easy, but I would not trade my journey for anything.
In my work with my clients, there is usually a galvanizing event that occurs that offers a chance to wake-up. A tragedy, a loss, a near-miss like mine, when life reminds us that it is short, and asks us if we are being true to ourselves. Sometimes we are not ready, and we hit the snooze button on the clock of life.
What I've noticed is that the opportunity always comes around again, that life always gives us a second chance to wake up. Sometimes the next wake up call is more serious and gets our attention.
Sometimes we listen, and sometimes we don't. There's no right or wrong. There's just life. Your life.
You know what I am going to ask you, right?
What will it take to push YOU to finally live YOUR truth? What will be YOUR wake-up call? Have you already had one and hit the snooze button?
Want to talk? Contact me for a powerful conversation about this.