I love films that make me contemplate life and feel more deeply.
My husband just shared with me a short (16’) documentary (embedded above) called simply, “Slomo.” If you haven’t seen it, please do yourself a favor and take the time to do so.
I often think about how to improve my life – usually little tweaks, sometimes BIG shifts. And one of the things I realized from watching this movie is that it made me yearn for a simpler life. Less noise, less maintenance, less things and more space. Do you ever yearn for a simpler life?
I think one of the key things that Slomo teaches us is that we CAN live simply. Something about that message speaks to me deeply. I remember when I lived in Sausalito in a 770 ft2 apartment and was SO happy. I’d wake up every Sunday, go for a hike in Golden Gate Park, and end up at Fred’s for French toast, coffee, and the Chronicle.
One of the other things that touched me deeply about this film is when he shares that every day when he was a doctor he would ask himself,
“How much of today promoted me spiritually and how much of it promoted me financially?”
And what he noticed was that at first, his life promoted him mostly spiritually, and then it became more and more financially, until he was no longer happy. And that was when he realized that it was time to “reinvent” himself.
He also realized something that I too realized in Sausalito – that everyone has the capacity to dream up and believe anything we want to. Psychologists call it a “personal delusion system,” Slomo says. You believe it because you choose to. So why not dream up something that makes you happy? And if you are dreaming up something that is making you angry or sad, why not change it?
Well, I've decided to change my dream.
I've decided to spend more time outside Sao Paulo, and back in the U.S. I have reached the conclusion that this place drains me spiritually, and that has contributed to my chronic pain. I don’t yet know how this is going to work, since my husband’s job is still here, at least for the foreseeable future, but we are going to find a way to make it work.
It’s time for me to change my dream. It’s time for me to reinvent myself.
How do I know this?
This kind of clarity is where logic does not work. This is where your intuition, your heart, and your spirit do their best work. You cannot “figure out” if you need to reinvent yourself. There is no worksheet that you can fill out that will tell you.
You need to FEEL it. You need to open up and allow things to move you, to watch films like Slomo and ask yourself, “Why does it move me?” and “What is speaking to me about this?” You have to allow yourself to be vulnerable. Vulnerable to your spirit.
Maybe you've been stuck somewhere for too long and it’s time to reinvent yourself or to change your personal delusion system. Maybe this film can move you to ask yourself, “Is it time to reinvent myself?”